am I hiding?

It's been a terribly hectic day for me. I woke feeling really energized. Now, I'm quite happy slumped over my chair typing out this blog.

the funny thing about now is that I have been looking forward to this very moment when i have some time to spare to write down some thoughts.. about the way I see things, the way things see me or maybe about perhaps how God see things.

but now that i am doing it... all thoughts seems to elude my mind.

why? perhaps i was too busy doing stuff that I forgot to live? I can't even remember what i ate for lunch...

(pause for effect)

nah... maybe that's cause I haven't warm up to writting yet. I am talkative says Grace Tan. haha :P

Things seems just so sureal when i reflect upon today.


God spoke to me today when I was on my way to an appointment from 2 Cor 2 . here follow this link to go there http://www.bible.org/cgi-bin/netbible.pl?header=on&book=2co&chapter=1

It continues to amaze me the unsurmountable grace that the Lord have for us. His abundance of love for us. It's just still so unnatural for me to bath in his love -- all the time -- esp during those dark times (that each of us will and must face). We hide ourselves from Him, just like adam and eve did... and I thought we knew better!!! He is God who sees everything, come one be realistic.. yet we still hide. Hey if no one knows, what the @#$% right?

I'm just so amazed how Paul writes it :

For if I make you sad, who would be left to make me glad but the one I caused to be sad?....

who indeed?

I wonder if God says the same thing to me when I'm hiding from Him.

I wonder, if my Dad says the same thing to me, in his heart when i piss him off.

I flash back to the many times i made my dad angry, and wonder what goes through his heart. All anger, all frustration, all tears and yet so much love. I know sometimes I stretch that love, and yet I know without a doubt my dad love me. unconditionally.

what more of God.

and paul continues.... forgive him.. because this will keep him from being overwhelmed by excessive grief to the point of despair... and if I have forgiven anything....

(eric may have said: he was worried that we are overwhelmed? comeon that guy has @#$@%^ let's kick his ass and leave him be a little while....)

so aren't we all lucky that we have a God... (and a good reason why i am not God.. coz if I am.. muahahahahahahah.... MUHAHAHAHAHAA. you get the picture)